Washington D.C North Mission

Can I leave tomorrow?  I mean look at the beautiful temple.  I can not wait for my mission!! 115 days and counting (:

The Climb

As you go through life you cross paths with many different kinds of people.  Some are in your life for a short time, others stay a while.  I have come to believe that every person who I have crossed paths with has been in my life for a reason.  As I get to know different people each one of them have given me a new opportunity to learn something about myself.  Just as every challenge I have been given has taught me something new.  With every person they all have a different story, where they came from, who they are now, and what they are to become.

I've always been a girl who likes to help others.  I've always enjoyed helping people overcome challenges in there lives because I know how difficult it can be and I know that if I didn't have people there for me it would be a whole heck of a lot harder.  But with this love of helping others it can send my mental well being over the top.

Once I received my mission call I was always congratulated first then, by some, warned of how much harder Satan was going to try and make me want to make a mistake or how much harder he was going to work on me to assure I did not succeeded with going on a mission.  Well I've had my mission call about a month and I can assure you this is true.

This last month of my life has been very eye opening to me.  I have crossed paths with many different people.  All of them being close friends or family and all of them with there own story.  Each of our relationships is different and each has come with it's own challenges.  But I know there is a reason that each and every one of these people are in my life at this time.

I have some friends (I know it's a miracle mckinsey has friends, don't worry it's only a couple :) anyway  I have watched several of them going through very tough times.  It's heart breaking for me to sit back and have to watch them go through all that they do.  Wishing so hard that I could just lift there burdens so they don't have to suffer anymore. Wishing that I could just make everything disappear for them. It wasn't until a couple nights ago while studying the scriptures that the answer to my heart ache was given.  I can't tell you what I was reading or where I was in the scriptures but I was in doing the right thing so answers were given to me.  For a while now I would mentally overload myself by thinking I could solve everyone else's problems plus my own.  I watched myself go through so much heart break with my surgeries that I vowed to myself to never let anyone hurt like I did.  But in reality that hurt was only bringing me closer to my savior.  In the last couple days I have come to realize that I can be there for anyone that is suffering or going through tough times regardless of our relationship, but I can not take there trial upon me.  Every person is given there own trials, temptation, and heart ache so they can become closer to the savior, so they can accomplish their test.  You can't take someone elses exam so that they can pass the test. Just like you can't take someones trail so they don't have to hurt anymore.  But you can help them study for there exam if you are stronger in an area they might lack.  You can be a friend to someone who might not have anyone or a shoulder to cry on to someone who is lost.

This gospel is an amazing thing.  It's set up for us.  I can not imagine how our Heavenly Father felt sending his only son down to suffer for all the world so that we all can live with him again.  But us, just as our brother Christ, all have our own trials and tribulations that we have to go through so that we can reach our ultimate goal of living with our Father again.

I know many of you are facing tough seas in your life.  My heart truly aches for you.  I know that temptation and the power of satan is real.  But I also know that I have a Heavenly Father that loves me and loves you all the same.  I know that we are not perfect, we are human we make mistakes.  But the power of repentance is real.  If you strive to do your best at all times you will be rewarded.  I'm only 18 years old but I have been told that the teenage years are some of the hardest years of your life.  I would attest to that right now.  The challenges I have gone through and am watching very close friends go through right now are tough.  It amazes me to see someone who I felt was so close to the rod fall away so quickly. I pray that they will only be made stronger through there struggles.  Please to all of you never give up.  You have worth.  You are loved.  You will reach the top of your mountain and the view is amazing.

I'd like to end with a story.  A couple year ago at a stake girls camp a member of my stake presidency was speaking.  He was speaking on the power that music can have in our life.  The last song he shared with us will forever have a special place in my heart.  It is not a church hymn and is not sung by an lds artist in fact the artist has gone off the deep end but the message the lyrics of this song have are amazing.  As you listen really listen to the message of the song and know that life is a climb but the view is great.

I know life is tough.  But never forget who you are and what you stand for.  Keep on climbing I know you will accomplish great things in life if you will push the negative aside and focus on the good!  Always remember to put one foot in front of the other and keep on pushing through.

The Greatest Generation of Missionaries

In my personal study tonight I came across this talk given by Russell M. Balllard at the October 2002 General Conference Priesthood Session.  As I listen to him and as he raised the bar for missionary work a couple things stood out to me.  First I loved his motto for what a missionary should be/have.  "Valiant, Courage, Strength, Active, True" He then continues to say a missionary should have "faith, hope, charity. & love, with an eye single to the glory of god."  Another thing I like was Missionaries should equal the glorious gospel they are preaching.  The last two things that really stood out to me were first.  Rise up, Measure up, and be fully prepared to serve the lord. Lastly was his closing statement "Pray hard, work hard, and be obedient...May God bless you with the courage to be "true at all times" (Alma 53:20) and with the vision to realize who you are and what the lord has for you to do."

All of us are serving our own kinds of missions right night now whether we realize it or not.  Some of us are going back to school, some are starting new jobs, and others of us are preparing to serve full time missions.  Regardless our position we are all spokesmen for the lord and his glories gospel.  Let that show through in your everyday life.  As he said the lord has something for you to do.  Be worthy and true always so you may know what that is.  I would like to share my testimony with you about missionary work.  I know it is true.  I know you are a missionary long before you are called on a mission.  I can not wait to dedicate part of my life to the lord and his teachings.  I know it is not for everyone but I do know that you will bless people lives if you chose to serve as well as at home serving through your actions and examples.  I love this gospel.  I know it is true.  I know I am a child of god and he loves me, as well as everyone of you.  In the name of my savior Jesus Christ.


For more on Elder Ballard's talk click here

Fast Sunday

"think about what you will fast for tomorrow, don't let it be just another day without food or water."

I loved this quote! Just a reminder it's fast sunday tomorrow! I would encourage all of you to take the time to write down or at least think of some questions you might have for the savior tomorrow and keep those in mind throughout your day.

What can I be learning?

I don't know why we have to go through so much hurt, heartache, and sometimes depression to learn some of life's greatest lessons. But I do know if we can train ourselves to instead of hurting and getting down to ask what lesson we can be learning or what good is coming out of this we will be happier. I'm not promising you that everything will be easy and pain free. But it's took me long enough to learn that it's the way I look at the situation and my attitude towards it which ultimatly ends up deciding how I handle the situation. Life will always get hard and unfourtantly we notice the bad more than we notice the good. But please before you put yourself through so much pain ask yourself. "What can I be learning from this" I leave you my testimony that your days of sorrow and depression will grow less and your days of happiness and joy will grow. And as always remember you are loved. You have worth. And you are a son or daughter of god. 

Heart, Might, Mind, & Strength

D&C 4:  2 Therefore, O ye that embark in the ^aservice of God, see that ye^bserve him with all your heart, might, mind and strength, that ye may stand ^cblameless before God at the last day.

 D&C 59:5 Wherefore, I give unto them a commandment, saying thus: Thou shalt ^alove the Lord thy God with all thy ^bheart, with all thy might, mind, and strength; and in the name of Jesus Christ thou shalt ^cserve him.


In the Scriptures the only time the lord ask us to use our HEART, MIGHT, MIND, & STRENGTH all at the same time is when we are serving him and loving him.  

As i've been preparing for my mission I have been studying many different things in the scriptures. A common theme to me is best shown in the story/vision of the tree of life.   Through these chapters I have found many words that have helped me understand more fully the work and responsibility that we as latter day saints are taking upon ourselves as members of this church. some of these words/phrases are clinging, continually holding, pressing forward, with all there feelings, etc.  All these words or phrases are not part time.   We are not commanded to sometimes hold on to the rod of iron,  we are not occasionally moving forward in the work.  He is saying that we need to be all the time 100% if not more engaged in his work.  Through this we are serving and loving him with all our heart, might, mind, and strength.  

I can not think of a better way to repay my savior than following his commandments and helping others to come unto him also.  I pray that all of you will cling more to the gospel and serve  those around you.  I think it's so cool that he asks so little of us for such a huge price that he paid.   (Mosiah 2:17) And behold, I tell you these things that ye may learn ^awisdom; that ye may learn that when ye are in the ^bservice of your ^cfellowbeings ye are only in the service of your God. 

I hope you are all having an amazing summer! Remember that you are loved! If you are struggling with anything never forget to pray and study the gospel! Oh and just by the way my mission call should be assigned tomorrow I could not be more excited! So if you have any guess on where i'm going let me know before next week! Have a great week and don't forget to serve others!!


Additional Information on D&C 4 can be found here

What Now?

I'm sorry I have lacked extremely with posting but I hope to get back in a normal habit.  

My entire life I have always told myself everything happens for a reason.  I've been able to withstand many things. My life has not been easy but I have been greatly blessed. 

 Once you graduate you're filled with excitement it's what you have essentially worked for your entire life.  But you are then left to decide what do I do now? For me that decision was not at all what I had expected.  I had never planned to serve a mission but with the recent age changes it became more of a possibility for me.  After much reflection and personal revelation I have decided to serve a mission.  I know without a doubt this gospel is true and I want to share that with the world.  I'm ecstatic to announce i should be receiving my mission call within the next couple weeks.  But for the time being i'm left to decide what to do until then.  

But that's not the point of this post.  The point is this summer i've had fun i've went on trips i've spent time with family and friends.  It's been great.  But somewhere within all of this I forgot who I am.  (before you freak i did not commit any crimes i didn't break any rules i simply became lazy)  Well eventually life caught up to me and when i was faced with a challenge I was shocked to see myself instead of fight back look for the good and use it to better my life I gave up i said it was to hard and waited for someone to come along and make it better.   Well not so shockingly no one came along and was able to make everything better with me putting in no effort.  I was not suddenly happy again and everything was not fixed.  It was rough but the scriptures, prayer, the gospel, and family are amazing things.  Once i reached the attitude that things were not going to change unless I decided to change my ways or actually put effort into something for good. things started to improve.  Things are not perfect now and they never will be.  But i'm happy i've learned a lesson I've learned many times but have found out so much more about myself and everyone around me.

Brothers and Sisters, we are not suddenly just going to grow up.  Are insecurity, uneasiness, and attitudes are not going to change themselves with little to no effort at all.  If you truly want something you are going to have to fight and work your hardest to reach it. But i know and have been reassured many times that if you put your whole heart and soul into something what is suppose to happen will happen.  I do not promise that if you ask for something with great detail and hope and wish and work for that to come true that it will.  Because sometimes we might think that we know exactly what we need but in reality we don't.  

I hope that this can help someone else out there.  Our world is filled with so much negativity, jealousy, and hurt.  Don't let that be you. don't let what other people say or do affect you in a bad way.  Everyone has a story and everyone has a history if's not our place to judge.  Worry about yourself help others serve others but sometimes by being selfish and worrying about yourself you help more people than  you would have helped by hurting another thinking you know the situation  when you don't.

One more thing and then i'll be done with my ranting but be happy.  Know you are loved.  Don't be taking life so seriously that you don't have a little fun every once and a while! And sometimes a smile on your face is all you need to change your attitude and everyone around you(: