Women's Pull

This summer on trek we had a women's pull.  it was up possibly the steepest and rockiest hill of the entire trek.  From the beginning we had planned to help each other by pulling one cart up the hill and then going back down and getting another cart.  right before we set off on our journey we learned we couldn't do that.  That meant myself, a twelve year old girl, a girl with a broken foot, and our ma who had been on bed rest for quite sometime and had just recently been cleared from it would have to pull our cart up the steep and rocky hill.  We watched as group after group started to tackle the hill.  some struggling more than others.  the time arrived and it was our groups turn to start our journey.  the first part was flat ground i didn't take it as a good sign when we could barley move then.  the river part came next as we started across the river we hit our first rock we were stuck.  at that moment i became so frustrated.  i thought of myself as a strong girl i knew i had most of the load of my cart and was disappointed i could not complete this task by myself.  well we were stuck in the river we had to ask for help from other women who were not assigned to a cart.  will there help we got out of the river.  we then thanked them and asked that they no longer help us.  after that we started up the steepest part of the hill.  big rocks were sticking out everywhere and in my mind i was thinking i would even want to do this a four wheeler.  we tried and tried again but by ourselves we could not make it up this hill.  again we had to ask for help.  by this time i was very upset.  i wonder why i could not complete this task by myself.  the rest of the hill we had to have help from the others and even some "angels."  we reached the top of the hill and i burst into tears.  most people were crying but not for the reason i was.  in all my pain i was mad at myself.  i still did not understand how i had not been able to pull a cart that weight two to three times more than me up a rocky hill.  i know i was not thinking clearly the odds were clearly not in my favor.  i continued with this attitude for the next couple hours. many tears were shed and finally i forgot about it. 

I share this with you not to make me frustrated again as the story sometimes does, but as i look back on this experience it has more meaning to it then to show how much stronger girls are than boys(: In our lives we are constantly falling down mountains and climbing back up.  if you are like me you get frustrated when you can't do it all on your own and you have to ask for help.  In reality we weren't put on this earth by ourselves so we could accomplish everything by ourselves and then be able to return to live with him.  Resources have been put on this earth for us to use and utilize.  Other people have been put on this earth to help us.  I will be the first to raise my hand and say i hate admitting i can't do it alone.  But we weren't designed to be able to do it all by ourselves.  i will also admit that we have those days when it feels like we are completely alone.  but we aren't.  there might not be anyone who you can physically see and talk to but you do have a heavenly father who is always there no matter what!

That women's pull was not a mistake it didn't happen on accident and i wasn't put in the position i was put in on accident.  it was there to teach me something.  What mountain do you feel like your trying to climb right now? What people are being placed on your path to help you pull your cart? What experience are you having so you can help someone else?  What people are being put there to distract you and try to make it so you take the harder path?  Life is tough.  We all have bad days.  But if we can only push(pull) up the mountain the rewards are unimaginable. and never ever forget you are loved. someone always cares.